Everything above is me and has been me for a very long time. I still parent and care for people beyond what's required of me. I also don't meet my own needs. How can I? It's a daily fight telling myself that I'm worth it and having to believe in that statement when every fiber of my being says otherwise.
I hate the fact that I've got to undo the mess I've known for so long and go the opposite, positive way. And for me attempting to turn my life around? Scares the hell out of me. How many times in my past when I tried to do some healing, it never lasted long. After so many times of this pattern, I just simply stopped trying.
So here I am once again - trying. And hoping that for once... just once.... a different outcome will occur. Only time will tell.
I hate the fact that I've got to undo the mess I've known for so long and go the opposite, positive way. And for me attempting to turn my life around? Scares the hell out of me. How many times in my past when I tried to do some healing, it never lasted long. After so many times of this pattern, I just simply stopped trying.
So here I am once again - trying. And hoping that for once... just once.... a different outcome will occur. Only time will tell.