Since I was a little girl, I have spent my life "being a responsible" adult. I never had a childhood to speak of. I was always having to the be the responsible one that had to take care of the cooking, cleaning, etc. when Dad left me, mother, and brother for the umpteenth time. Mom had to go out and immediately work 2 jobs to keep us from landing in the streets. So I became "mom" of the household for many, many years.
Once I reached into adulthood, I went from being "mom" to being a "caregiver" to everyone. I took care of every one and everything. I had to take care of everything otherwise nothing would get accomplished, Too many times I relied on people to help me out only to fail me time and time again. No one really cared to help but they damn sure didn't mind me helping them.
As a result, I have kept to myself. I don't allow anyone come close to me at all now. Too many people since I was little, have hurt me, broke their promises, weren't there when I needed them, and just generally didn't want to help me out. So now, I am alone with no friends. Maybe, just maybe, one day I'll have friends that will be there for me...
Once I reached into adulthood, I went from being "mom" to being a "caregiver" to everyone. I took care of every one and everything. I had to take care of everything otherwise nothing would get accomplished, Too many times I relied on people to help me out only to fail me time and time again. No one really cared to help but they damn sure didn't mind me helping them.
As a result, I have kept to myself. I don't allow anyone come close to me at all now. Too many people since I was little, have hurt me, broke their promises, weren't there when I needed them, and just generally didn't want to help me out. So now, I am alone with no friends. Maybe, just maybe, one day I'll have friends that will be there for me...