For many, many, years this dragon has been asleep. Year after year he slumbers, never awakening because he knows that when we last crossed paths, he burned his mighty strength into my memory to never forget how horrible he could be should he awaken.
This dragon of my past holds many things: my memories, my emotions, my childhood... ALL OF ME. He took me physically, sexually, mentally, emotionally, and verbally leaving only but a shell. A shell that learned to forget the badness and makeup only good things to keep the dragon happy. And with those happy created memories, the dragon went to sleep.
As a result the shell grew up not knowing who she was. For 40 years she never knew who she was. Until October when a little child's voice within her talked and cried to her adult self.
It was then that I knew that it was time to face the dragon and take back all that he took - MY LIFE. So I have made myself a promise to move forward. It is a promise that I won't look back but move forward no matter what is going on. Some days, I know I won't make sense when I talk and other days I will. Today happens to be day that I can talk coherently. Who knows what tomorrow will be like.