In the video, a drunk father was abusing her mom verbally, emotionally, and physically manhandling her roughly. While all that was going on, the little girl took care of herself and her baby brother who was still in diapers. She did things to occupy her time to get her mind away from the abuse that was going on.
At the time of this episode, she was drawing a picture. When she was done, wanted to show her mom, who at the time, was being abused by her drunk father. Because she interrupted the abuse, the father got angry and chased the little girl out the day and caught her. The last thing we see is the father carrying the little girl over his shoulder walking back towards the house.
The next day was picture day at school. She stood in line to take a picture and the abuse was obvious - her lip was busted, she had a black eye and you could see the worry in her face. She didn't want to be there, didn't want the picture being taken, and didn't want to be in that position at all.
Because of that picture, she was taken out of her home, separated from her brother, and taking away into Foster Care only to go from one Foster Care Home to another. He little brother got taken away as well to another Foster Care Home. No one wanted her as she was not stable due to all the abuse she incurred. Until the last Foster Care Home...
A woman accepted this little girl into her home. Because of all her abuse, she did everything she could to destroy any kind of relationship with the new Foster Care Mom, she as she had before with the others. She had grown so acclimated to not having anything positive in her life, she spent the time and energy trying to destroy anything positive that came her way.
The Foster Mom made a call. The little thought for sure that she was going to move once again. So she looked out her bedroom window with hopeless eyes to find the car that dropped her at the new Foster Home had arrived. The look of resignation and hopelessness increased. She waited to be told to pack her things.
But it never happened. Instead, the man that dropped her off walked around to the other side of the car and opened up the back door. He reached inside, and pulled out her baby brother. Her eyes and face lit up like a Christmas Tree on Christmas morning. Her baby brother was coming to live with her! She wasn't going away!
When I watched this video, I cried my eyes and heart out. The abuse at the beginning of the video took me back to my childhood. The words she was speaking in regards to how she felt sounded like my voice... like I was speaking those words on the video.
It tore me apart in two. I had to stop the video for a few minutes and cried my heart out. The pain, hurt, anguish and despair from long ago crept back up to present day life. My hubby heard me crying and came over, held me, and hugged me tight as I released emotions of a long ago abused childhood. I told him about the video and everything the little girl said and turned the video on so he could watch it with me.
When it was over, I cried some more. Why couldn't I have been saved? Why didn't anyone take me away? Why wasn't I given a chance to have a happy life? It wasn't fair dammit! I should have been her! I should have been given the chance!
But I didn't. Instead, all I had to look forward to was abuse day in and day out. It never stopped. I only wish that my life had turned out like the little girl in the video where I was taken away to go live with someone who would love, cherish, and take care of me.... WITH NO ABUSE INVOLVED.
IF ONLY....